So there's a good reason for why I haven't been around - posting, commenting, faving, anything like that. And it's very simple. Most of you already know it, but I figured it's been long enough and I'll give it a shot.

My internet sucks.

It seems to have a feud with DeviantArt. It'll let me see my page. It'll occassionally let me see a journal. But deviations? Forget it. Not allowed. The page itself loads, but the deviation either starts to load and then gives up, or it stays a gray box. I try the downloading option when it's available, and i.e. will either stay a blank screen or load part of the way and then stop. It teases me. And torments me.

It will let me see the deviations page and tell me who's updated and all the wonderful pictures I want to see. But it won't load them.

This has been going on for weeks, now, and it's really pissing me off and making me depressed. I have to fight for ten minutes to maybe see one deviation! Sometimes more!

I try and check it elsewhere and it just doesn't happen. My deviation count is at ridiculous levels and I can't do anything about it. As it is, I'll be amazed if it posts this journal. And if it does... yay. then there might be hope yet.

I will do the best I can to get to everyone when I can, but... looks like it'll still be a while. It has issues loading just about every site, so don't feel too badly. It sucks all around, and doesn't just hate dA. Even if it seems to favor crashing dA more than the other sites when it does behave.

Anyway, I decided to do the quiz thing in 's journal. Just for the H of it.

RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
You can’t take me - Bryan Adams (Spirit Soundtrack) [rofl okay. Sure. We’ll go with that]

2. How would you describe yourself?
Until the end - Breaking Benjamin [hm…. It sorta makes sense. “why give up, why give in? it’s not enough, it never is. So I will go on until the end…”]

3. What do you like in a guy?
Hide - Red [w…t…f? “I will run and hide till memories fade away..”]

4. How do you feel today?
Comalies - Lacuna Coil [ookkayyy]

5. What is your life's purpose?
Everytime we touch - Cascada [considering I don’t like people touching me? Lol.]

6. What is your motto?
Wardance - Vessel [awesome song. But not exactly my motto. “Tell me, can you see them, marching off to war. Their strength growing in number, stronger than before…”]

7. What do your friends think of you?
Away from the sun - Three Doors Down [rofl. “it’s down to this, I’ve got to make my life make sense..”]

8. What do you think of your parents?
Wanted dead or alive (acoustic) - Bon Jovi [ ]

9. What do you think about very often?
Unwanted - Avril Lavigne […… “you don’t know me, don’t ignore me, you don’t want me there, you just shut me out, make me go away…”]

10. What is 2 + 2?
Right where I belong - Three Doors Down [o…k… I hate math. ]

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Empty Apartment - Yellowcard [couldn’t be farther off for the most part]

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Lost in the crowd - Shinedown [iTunes really doesn’t like me today. “should I open up my eyes or just ignore who you are, and what you could have been?”]

13. What is your life story?
Photograph - Nickelback [only because I take pictures of everything I can, even if it’s a painful memory…]

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Evil Angel - Breaking Benjamin [XD “I’m a believer, nothing could be worse, all these imaginary friends…”]

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Falling - Staind [iTunes really really doesn’t like me. Come on! “you, in your shell, are you waiting for someone to rescue you from yourself, don’t be disappointed when no one comes”]

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
Bittersweet - Within Temptation [ no comment.]

17. What will they play at your funeral?
It’s the Fear - Within Temptation [“I fear who I am becoming, I feel that I am losing the struggle within, I can no longer restrain it, my strength is fading, I have to give in…” I suppose this is semi-appropriate. Somewhat]

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Backstreet’s Back - Backstreet Boys [XD roflmao! No comment I can think of. Yes, I still have some BSB! I’m not ashamed of it.]

19. What is your biggest fear?
What I’ve Done - Linkin Park [hm…]

20. What is your biggest secret?
Angels - Within Temptation [well… it’s not really a secret. “blinded by faith, I couldn’t hear, all the whispers, the warnings so clear, I see the angels, I’ll lead them to your door, there’s no escape now, no mercy no more, no remorse cause I still remember… the smile when you tore me apart”]

21. What do you think of your friends?
ATWA - System of a Down [w…t…f…]

22. What will you post this as?
Outside - Staind [one of my fav songs period. Where was it earlier instead of the wtf moments? Lol]


wish me luck fighting the internet, everybody!!

~Luna

My dear friends:


~*~*~
change my attempt good intentions...
--
you won't cry for my absence, I know -
you forgot me long ago
am I that unimportant?
am I so insignificant?
isn't something missing?
isn't someone missing me?

even though I'd be sacrificed,
you won't try for me, not now
though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone...
Isn't someone missing me?
--
so let mercy come
and wash away what I've done
I'll face myself
to cross out what I've become
erase myself
and let go of what I've done
~*~*~